Myo Niimura (naga_saki) wrote,
Myo Niimura
naga_saki

i ran out my ritalin

Big Bang - Day By Day

WARNING : THIS ENTRIES MAY BE HARM TO SOME PEOPLE BUT BELIEVE ME, THIS ONLY FOR ENTERTAIN

PURPOSE

SO... i pass the boy band era, pass the jpop era, pass the momusu era , pass the visual kei

era, lil' tip on korean era
and you know, i feel like so old now ha ha ha ha

Today, i watch vclip of boy band korean, Big Bang. i suppose they have a lots of fan girl.

It's ok kids~~ you deserve to have them to be your idol for now, but for me. Ow~~ that v-clip

is redundant.i'm so pass the era of -boy do make up- ya!! ha ha ha ha ha

Gile, adegan 1 yang gue liat adalah 2 pria sedang agak ngerap dan terlibat dalam quarrel gitu,

asli tuh vclip kok boytouch alert dimana-mana. In the first sight, asli gue kira mreka mo

ciuman gitu ha ha ha ternyata critanya mreka mo brantem gitu,jadi adu kepala ha ha ha *damn my

maho mind*

Anggota boy band itu sendiri,biasalah ada yang tipe supa cute, ada yang tipe brandalan, dan

sisanya ga jelas antara mreka cameo, ato cuma bisa dancer.

Lalu ke adegan berikutnya, si brandalan menangisi si wanita, dan si supa cute juga menangisi

si wanita, ya~~ cinta segitiga gonoh. AND then...mreka si cowo-cowo cute ini menangis. IYA

menangis!! dengan air mata bercucuran, dan~~ eye liner mreka luntur!!! *oh dude~~* ga itu aja

bekas adegan berantem itu, bikin mreka pake band aid dengan posisi asimetris di muka ganteng

nya mereka!!. (er...klo brantem bukanya bogem biru-biru ya,bukan pake band aid deshou?!?!?!)

OK adegan berikutnya...
Adegan rumah sakit !! *here we go again* the typicall korean drama yang cewe nya mati karena

kanker. I wonder~ is there any nuclear radiation in korea (sorry ya klo beneran memang

ada,maap nilai sejarah dunia gue dulu pas-pas an) so that all the girl in korea died caused by

cancer?!?!. Hey i'm not playing around with cancer people ya, i find my families died caused

by cancer too, but sometimes this whole korean drama plot it always ended up in there. Got

cancer and die! It seems like, if-u-die-by-cancer-your-life-is-more-respectable.

OK, enough with the cancer thingie..balik ke Video Clip

setelah adegan rumah sakit,lalu adengan si wanita mau dioperasi. Si cowo-cowo itu baikan, dan

ntah kenapa si brandalan ngasih cincin tuh wanita ke si supa cute. AGAIN, the adegan is so

maho ya! PASTINYA si cewe mati.

DAN ceritanya selesai.

Oh, about 6 years ago i thought i'm gonna love that boyband figure for forever. I feel like

they're too kinclong ha ha ha dan please ya, kayaknya dengan gue umur segini ga jamannya deh

demen tuh anak-anak abg, ga pantes...phedofil banget rasanya ha ha ha
gue yang dalam kehidupan nyata pernah jalan sama anak umur 15thn aja,all my friends like

so..geleng-geleng kepala =P.

So,sometimes i wonder aja kadang penggemar2 boyband yang bukan teenage.Get up and get your

life dude. Atau Mungkin karena mreka blum pernah ketemu Mr.Jackson aja yaaa...

Siapakah Mr.Jackson?
Dia adalah salah satu ayah dari murid-murid disekolah gue, ga usah gue tulis nama panjangnya

ya tapi dia mang namanya Jackson. Gileeee ntuh manusia ganteng banget ya. Ganteng dewasa,tapi

gue yakin jaman dia teenage , tampang dia juga tampang bishonen gitu. Tapi sekarang dengan

beard, dan clean cut hair....gossshh he's sooo ganteng!!!!! (walopun gue tau doi ber istri dan

bentar lagi punya anak 3).

Itu dia tampang lulusan bishonen yang waktu dewasanya,dia pun jadi pria ganteng. Kasihan

istrinya ngejagain suami nya extra keras ha ha ha. Maap tak bisa gue posting fotonya. Takut

euy ketahuan, secara...kumpulannya artis Indo. Ntar malah blog gue terlalu publik dan jadi

geger lagi huawhuahwuawuauwha.

==

Sunday...
alone...
again...
doing nothing...

This is so dull, my Ritalin is out and well got no money to buy it yet. This is no good, my

swing mood and my deppresion is quite haunting me again.

the trigger? this broken air-con, and watch tv series that should be entertain and funny but

makes me having crazy swing mood and my minds going everywhere, bringing bad aura. Gosh i hate

it...i feel so intens now

Leni told me to not drinking Ritalin too much,it makes my brain slower. But dont know ya i

feel that just my emergency medicine now and i need it.

when i write this entries, i dont think my mind is straight now.
i'm feeling like...so complicated, it said that people follow God's words and He will release

us free. But y'know~ i'm not feeling that free, and it's depressing. It should be releasing

but its not. So must be something wrong with me.

i am holding back my own life because i dont want to dissapoint everyone, and that's why i am

not moving. Gyah, it's just complicated and my mind is soo unclear

and dont know why, this soundtrack PADI - Jangan Datang Malam ini...it's so my song now. *nd

yeah i like that vclip, Sheila Marcia as lesbian, she's hot dude*

Y'know maybe i am just lost...so lost. After 9 years dreaming and longing about that person,

and now i decided to erase all of the memories. It's hard...now i dont have a hope, and i'm

feeling worried because i dont find any person to be loved,or crush (i mean a really true

crush,not just 5 minutes crush that i always do)

THis is so twisted. That person came when i was teenage. When i was dealing with my mind,

dealing some traumatic situation, and there the person was. Came to my live, i have the

feeling of..ow we're good friend because we have same situations as the torched soul. This

person still abusing my mind whenever we met. The last time i met this person, i really want

to tell how's my real feeling and i want to tell how this person is always being abusive. But

of course it's not happening.


I am 24 not and i'm still in borderline, and i'm so hate it
maybe i should live far away from anyone i love so i can take my live in pieces and glue it

together. I am still the torched soul,

andd this Grey's anatomy series makes my craziness complete

12.00am
5hours to run
starting crazy stressfull monday

p.s : and the nightmare still haunting me.
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